Monday, March 31, 2014

Spring Fever

Despite the fact that it snowed yesterday, the weather is starting to warm up! So while all of my friends are out celebrating Spring fever, I'm at home coming down with an actual Spring fever. Taking time out of my bed-ridden day to bring you the do's and don'ts of surviving the pesky warm weather bug.

Do... take your temperature every hour just in case it decides to climb above 98.6. 

Don't... eat whatever you want because you're not nauseous at the time. That's going to change. 

Do... keep your laptop, phone, tea, and oj within reach at all times. Necessities. 

Don't... expect your s/o, roommate, parent, etc. to understand how you're feeling. This is the worst of the worst, obviously worse than the tonsillectomy, wisdom teeth extraction, and spinal fusion surgery.

Do... milk that shit for all it's worth. Get out of bed? No way! Get your own tea? Psshh. 

Don't... get ambitious and try to start a sewing project. You will get tired and fed up before you finish reading the directions. 

Do... document your suffering. 

Meh. 

Don't... forget to take painkillers and decongestant and NyQuill. 

Do... Download the most recent season of Teen Mom 2, The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants, and The Princess Diaries. There is absolutely no reason to get out of bed. 

Don't... jokingly tell your friend that you think you have mumps if there's been an outbreak in your area. (Promise it was a joke.)

Do... keep your fingers crossed that this was just a 24 hour bug.

Stay healthy my friends! 

Sunday, March 30, 2014

Claire Lately

This past week has been a hectic one. 3 interviews, 35 hours of work, stressing about finances. You know, the usual. BUT despite the fact that I seem to have come down with a Spring cold, things are looking up!

My monsters middle schoolers are on Spring Break this week! I still have to do some lesson planning for when they come back, but I don't have to see their rude little faces for a whole week.

In related news, I found a new job!! I was offered an amazing internship with the state health department, working with a program to improve the health of children ages 0-3. I am so excited to start this position at the beginning of May! Now I just have to put in my two weeks...I've never done this before, and I'm so nervous! Any tips/advice on how to go about this would be so helpful.

I have never been good at being patient. The job search process has been frustrating, especially because I was so desperate to find something. I'm just so glad that it's all over. I was about two days away from to this to-do list...


Sunday, March 23, 2014

Out With the Old

Yesterday was Spring Cleaning at my apartment. I could barely see the floor of my bedroom, and it was driving me absolutely insane. I couldn't focus on my homework; I couldn't relax. My room is too small for all of my things, and I knew that making a "To Donate" pile was a must in the cleaning process. I vacuumed, dusted, and attempted to organize my makeup and jewelry in an accessible way. The biggest part of the day, however, was finally donating the size 0 jeans that I had owned since high school.

I had 6 pairs of jeans in my dresser that didn't fit. For about two years, they were in there, just taking up space. At first, they were just tight. Then it got to a point where I knew they didn't fit, but I held on to them anyways. A small part of me wanted to start dieting and exercising like crazy with the goal of fitting into these tiny pants again.

Finally pulling these pants out of my dresser gave me a huge sense of relief. I don't have the body of a stick thin 17 year old anymore, but I'm okay with it. Some people get rid of pants as they lose weight to remind themselves that there's no going back.

Like Cam from Modern Family!

Donating these jeans felt similar. There is no going back to my curve-less, high school body, and this was the final step in accepting it. I like pizza and wine and cookies, and I have no interest in cutting these things out just to squeeze back into a pair of pants. Is this what growing up feels like?


Thursday, March 20, 2014

If I'm Being Honest

If I'm being honest, my personal life is a bit of a mess right now. If I'm being honest, dishonesty has shaken up my whole life.

There are very few things more disappointing to me than dishonesty. Dishonesty hits even harder when it comes from someone who you thought you could trust unconditionally.

I've always struggled with the ability to forgive someone. Whether it be a friend, family member, or boyfriend who has wronged me in some way, I see it as very black and white. If someone cares about me as much as they claim to, they wouldn't have done that thing to hurt me. I forget that people are human, that they are supposed to make mistakes. I forget that I am supposed to forgive them, just as they have forgiven me in the past.

Much of the time, I do forgive people eventually. Apathy usually wins over anger. I then struggle with rebuilding relationships after things have been broken. Distrust is a very powerful thing, and it can be damn near impossible to make it go away. It has been my personal experience that, even after forgiveness, these relationships are never as strong as they once were. I live in suspicion and wait for the next hurtful thing to occur. (I know this isn't great - I'm a work in progress.)

So my question to you, without giving away the details of the situation, is how do you let someone try to regain your trust after they have so profoundly shattered it? How do you decide if this is the incident that should force someone out of your life, or if it's something that can be fixed with time?

If you're looking for me, I'll be the girl with the Rolling Rock pretending that I'm far away from here.


Wednesday, March 19, 2014

19 on the 19th

I may be behind on readings for class and putting off a paper, but I most certainly have time to share with you 19 likes and dislikes.

Things I love:

1.) All things Marvel. Captain America: The Winter Soldier cannot come out soon enough. (Although I'm not too sure about this whole Guardians of the Galaxy business.)


2.) Online shopping. With all of the new summer lines coming out, it's seriously becoming a problem. I need someone to take my credit card away. Too bad I've memorized the card number...

3.) Benedict Cumberbatch. (Star Trek Into Darkness is definitely playing in the background.) But seriously, from Smaug to Sherlock to Khan, I could watch him all day.

4.) Talking about sex. Not in the 17-year-old gossip kind of way. I love educating middle, high school, and college students about safe sex. As a general rule, my own experiences are not up for discussion.

5.) Covergirl LipPerfection Jumbo Gloss Balm.


I have two of these lip balms in Watermelon Twist and Blush Twist. They're long lasting, moisturizing, and are so easy to apply. Love Covergirl! 

6.) Online boutiques. Looking at you, The Modern Tulip and Fifth & Mae. (See number 2.) 

7.) Pokemon. I'm a huge nerd. Last fall, I went through a phase and downloaded Pokemon Yellow, Crystal, and Emerald to play on my computer. When I saw that the series was new on Netflix, I squealed with joy. 



8.) The Little Penguin. 

Are these bottles not the CUTEST.

9.) Live theater. I cannot wait to see The Book of Mormon with my mom in May! 

10.) The Office. I have a Dwight bobblehead on my desk. Jim and Pam forever.

Things I don't love: 


1.) That state up north.


Kid knows what's up. 
2.) Having my sleep disrupted. 

3.) Grad school, but just because it's challenging and also homework. I love public health, but earning this degree is going to kill me a lot of work. 

4.) 8:00am classes.

5.) Teenage angst. 

6.) Scarlett Johanson. 

7.) Dishonesty. 

8.) How sweatpants aren't appropriate workplace attire. (Dressing up is fun when it's something that I do for me. Less fun when it's a daily requirement.) 

9.) Kristen Stewart and Twilight. I can't. 

But really though. 

Linking up with Kathy for Humpday Confessions! 

Tuesday, March 18, 2014

Ipsy

Two months ago, I decided that I wanted to subscribe to a monthly box. I liked the idea of having an inexpensive present to myself arrive on my doorstep mid-month, and after doing some research, I settled on Ipsy. For just $10/month, Ipsy will mail you a Glam Bag with 4-5 makeup products tailored to your skin tone and style. I am absolutely loving it so far!

March's Glam Bag

I've never been a huge makeup person, mostly because I didn't know what to buy or how to use it. I would feel overwhelmed in Sephora or standing in front of the huge cosmetic wall at a local grocery store. It has been so nice (and easy!) receiving products that I am interested in trying without having to pick them out for myself. My favorite item from March's Glam Bag is the bareMinerals Marvelous Moxie Lipstick in Get Ready.



Throughout the month, you will also receive coupons via email if you wish to purchase additional items. Subscribing to Ipsy has been such a great experience.

Interested in joining the fun? Check it out here!

Monday, March 17, 2014

Is It Summer Yet?

4 reasons that I'm excited for summer, all thanks to American Eagle.

1.) This fun belt with all the colors. Perfect for cinching any maxi dress and adding a pop of color.


2 & 3.) These head bands. 


They remind me of the head wraps Lucille Ball would wear in I Love Lucy. Channeling my 50's spirit animal. 



4.) My newfound ability to rock overalls. (#sorrynotsorry for the dressing room mirror pic.)

Should've been born in the south. 

I've always been a basic shorts and tank tops kind of girl, but I'm looking forward to mixing up my wardrobe with these accessories this summer. Just waiting on this 30 degree weather to go away for good! 

Sunday, March 16, 2014

Spring Break Reading List

My spring break is coming to a close. Classes will resume on Monday. My brain hurts just thinking about it. Because I had to work at both my regular job and semester internship, I wasn't able to visit any place warm. I was, however, able to spend some quality time with my couch and a few great books.

Coraline by Neil Gaiman 


I know that this is a children's book from which a horrible children's movie was made. I read this book in 6th grade, but it was so fun to go back and revisit the story. Coraline is a suspenseful tale about explorations, an evil world, and the importance of bravery. I finished this book in one sitting; it's such a page turner. Plus each chapter is accompanied with a fun illustration like this one: 

The villain in this story looks like a hungover version of me!



The public health nerd in me is obsessed with this book. If you have any interest in the history and spread of HIV, AIDS, and how the disease has affected Asia, go read this book right now. So many things in this book frustrated and angered me, but it has only increased my passion to work in sexual health! 

It was nice to finally put a dent in my reading list, although I have so many more to go. Up next is Sing You Home by Jodi Picoult. (can you tell I'm obsessed with her?) I'm completely dreading going back to school tomorrow, but this week should be brightened with a package from The Modern Tulip. I ordered several pieces over the weekend, and I can't wait to receive them in the mail! 

Enjoy the rest of your Sundays! 

Tuesday, March 11, 2014

Hometown Lovin'

This week is my school's spring break! I'm spending the week working and going on interviews for summer internships, but it's so nice not to worry about classes and exams and papers and stress.

Over the weekend, I was able to visit my dad and my dog at childhood home! I started out by grabbing something cold at Starbucks because it was above 30 degrees and I needed some help staying awake during my solo road trip. Then I got really hyped up on caffeine but still had two hours left to drive. I talked to myself a lot.

Too much coffee. 

The auto show was in town, and I made it my mission to find the biggest truck possible. I do mostly city driving, so this sort of car is obviously a necessity in my life. 

A girl can dream. 

The rest of the weekend was spent snuggling my dog... 


visiting one of my favorite ice cream shops...


and pouring through old photos of family vacations. 

5 years old in Disney. I was such a ham. 

I will admit that I'm incredibly jealous of my friends who are somewhere where it's sunny and 75, (it snowed on Saturday) but I'm thankful to have gotten to visit home, even if it was only for 3 days. 

What is your favorite part about going home? 

Wednesday, March 5, 2014

5 Things I Learned in Undergrad

At the risk of sounding cliche, my college experience went fast. I graduated in three years with a degree in English Literature. (Thanks mom and dad for encouraging that dead-end endeavor.) Today I'm sharing the 5 most important things that I learned outside of the classroom during those three years.

1.) College is more like high school than you hope it will be. There is constant gossip in the halls of your dorm. If you kiss a boy on your floor, your roommates will know before you've even had the chance to remember. Cliques still exist, and people still stereotype. If you need a crash course in cliques and stereotypes, Mean Girls can help you out. Mean Girls can always help you out.

YOU CAN'T SIT WITH US! 

2.) Speaking of Mean Girls, the Mean Girls drinking game will forever be one of the most fun things to do with your roommates.

3.) There comes a time when you realize that not all of your friendships will make it past graduation. The craziest part is that after a while, that becomes okay. Whether it be due to falling out of touch, growing apart, or the fact that some people are just plain shitty, not every friendship is meant to last forever. There is a difference between the people who love you after a few shots and the people who will take you out for a few shots and bring you Gatorade the next morning because they're standing by you for the worst day/week/month/year of your life.

4.) The more years spent away from home, the more homesick you feel. You could never imagine moving back home, but breaks never give enough time to visit your family and most importantly your pets.


5.) The thought of life after college is basically unimaginable. The notion of grad school will be tossed around by seemingly every person whom you come into contact with, like it's so easy to get in. The thought of applying for a full time job, however, with your Bachelor's degree in one of the many Humanities subjects is actually unimaginable. Shout out to your alma mater for looking favorably on internal applicants. 

What are some of your most valuable lessons learned, both in and out of college? 

Tuesday, March 4, 2014

Keeping Perspective

A little bit of real talk - I am not the biggest fan of my current job. (By "not the biggest fan," I mean that I have absolutely dreaded going to work every day for the past month.) I work in an after school program with monsters middle school kids in grades 6-8. On a weekly basis I'm ignored and cursed at in multiple languages. I leave almost every day with a headache. I have a hard time leaving work at work - I mull over my day after leaving and wake up the next morning wondering what fresh hell is waiting for me in the classroom. 

I've been at it for 5 1/2 months, and there's about 3 months left in the kids' school year. After a complete breakdown  calm conversation with Ryan last night, I realized that I was looking at the situation in an unnecessarily negative way. I'm gaining experience. I'm working to live on my own and pay my bills. I'm saving, albeit minimally. And it will all be over in 3 months. No more kids, no more screaming, no more cursing, no more anything. 

I'm making it a goal to go into that school with a positive attitude and a smile on my face every day. When kids give me trouble, I'll remind myself that I'm lucky to be working and think of the wine I have waiting for me at home. Meanwhile, I'll be frantically applying for new jobs and counting down the days until spring break. 

3 months more... 3 more months. 


Sunday, March 2, 2014

Oscar Preparations

Somewhere in a far off land, Jennifer Lawrence, Bradley Cooper, and Meyrl Streep spent the day perfecting their already perfect selves, sitting through hair and makeup and dressing to the nines to get ready for tonight's Oscar Awards. I had quite the grueling day of Oscar prep as well. Specifically, I kept my pjs on all day, scrapbooked, and watched 2 (about to start #3) of the films nominated for Best Picture.

I cannot get over a lot of things about Dallas Buyers Club. I cannot get over the fact that Matthew McConaughey won a Golden Globe for Best Actor in a Drama. I cannot get over the fact that he lost 50 pounds to play the role and literally looked like he was on the verge of death.

Seriously, how did this even happen.  

I cannot get over the fact that he was able to act so well in such a serious role. He has clearly been underperforming for most of his career. (I guess I can't get over a lot of things about Matthew McConaughey.) Objectively, it was a good film, but I can't say that I particularly enjoyed it. It was an interesting story, but for the most part, I was just bored. Not as bored, however, as when I watched...


If I'm being totally honest, I didn't even finish The Wolf of Wall Street. (If I missed the best part, please tell me, and I'll go back and watch the end!) Leo definitely did his job as an actor - I actually hated him in this movie. I'm pretty positive that was the point, but I don't enjoy movies where I hate the main character. I like having somebody to root for, and Leo's character had plenty of ladies... ahem...rooting for him already. I felt like a lot of the scenes in this movie were added for shock value. By that I mean that I felt like this entire movie was made for shock value. I can only watch Leo do lines of coke off of prostitutes so many times before it's just a repetitive, boredom-inducing mess. 

Basically my day looked a lot like this: 


I'm trying to squeeze in Gravity before the awards show. (It's going to be a close call.) 

So far, my favorites for every category lie with the cast of American Hustle. Fingers crossed for Jennifer, Amy, Christian, and Bradley. 

Who are your Oscar favorites tonight? 

Saturday, March 1, 2014

Venison Meatballs

Hi lovelies. Happy Saturday!

A few weeks ago, Ryan and I made a recipe for venison meatballs. (Confession time - I'm a vegetarian and I tried one... and then another. They're so lean and so delicious.)

Ingredients:
1 lb. ground venison
1 egg
2 Tbs. tomato paste
1/4 onion, finely diced
2 cloves garlic
1/2 tsp oregano
1/3 tsp basil
1/3 tsp salt
1/4 tsp pepper
1/3 cup bread crumbs

Preparation:
Preheat oven to 370 degrees F.
Combine all ingredients in a medium sized bowl until thoroughly mixed.

Ingredients before mixing

Roll into balls approximately 2" in diameter and place on greased baking sheet. (Yields about 12 meatballs)
Bake meatballs for 20 minutes, flip, and bake for another 20 minutes.
Remove from the oven and enjoy!

We paired these meatballs with spaghetti and a spicy red sauce. (The flavors in the sauce did distract from the flavor of the meatballs; next time we plan to use a more plain pasta sauce.)

The finished product

Bon App├ętit!